finally got it...

apologies to those people who were involved in my mental madness a couple of weeks ago. you guys know who you are and i wasn't being a very good friend. sorry i let you down.

i assisted this weekend on the landmark forum with ang, AND liz did it! heh we so proud of her. anyhow, what i was playing for was that i'm not good enuf (and boy, what a story). but, i didn't really give it up until tuesday evening when i was having a stress attack. then renee sent me down to the centre to do an acknowledgement exercise. and it wasn't til after that i really go that i am good enuf and that i don't have to try so hard. this was really big for me and i cried on the way home just letting go of it. lol man it was beautiful.

plus! i spoke to my old best friend ben. i'm so glad i got the guts to do it. i missed my pal so much and we had a real good convo. think i may have to go to sydney now :P look out!